mari study sme2x .. part 4 ..

subject : psychology and sociology
lecturer name : miss revathi

sociology and health care

culture-bound syndrome = culture- specific syndrome
- only the members of culture know about those disease or disorder .
- the other culture will do not know about it .

epidermic
- the disease that spread within a specific country only
eg : chicken pox in MALAYSIA

pandermic
- the disease that can be spread n known whole over the world
eg : H1N1 spread through the whole WORLD .

disease
- distrupt the usual function of the body

healthy
- capacity to perform a duties and fulfill the role

incidence
- report or information about some disease can be within a year or more period of time .

prevalence
- report or information about some disease in a specific / accurate time given

morbidity
- disease occur in a specific population

mortality
- death cause of the disease occur in a specific population

social class
- the lower the class the higher the rate of the morbidity and disability
eg : financial strain , poor diet , stress

race and ethnicity
- poor economic and environmental condition manifested in higher mortality and morbidity rate .

gender
- woman experiences higher prevalence of many disease but tend to live longer than man
eg : lower alcohol consumption , lower cigarette smoking

age
- the older the people the more they use the healthy services
eg : most older people at least having one chronic disease .

healthy-directed behavior
observable action that are taken with specific health outcome

healthy-related behavior
practicing a healthy lifestyle

preventive health behavior
doing something to prevent from getting those disease

illness behavior
recognise the symptom from the outcome

sick role
= societal expectation about attitude and behavior of the person label as ill .

sick role behavior
= action are taken once individuals has been diagnosed .

4 aspects of the sick role
- the person who is sick are not their fault
- the person who is sick are exempt from the daily responsibilities
- the person who is sick must get well as soon as possible
- the person who is sick must seek the professional help

exemption
- exclude from doing something because they are sick

privileges
- can do something they usually cannot do it while they are healthy

obligations
- they need to do even they are sick because that are their responsibilities

health beliefs and practices
- scientific and biomedical
- holistic
- folk medicine
- religious rite and practices

primary caregiver
- the person who will take care of us all the time which is very important in order to help us to get well
eg : nurse

supporting caregiver
- the second person who will look after us when there are no primary caregiver
eg : family , relatives

characteristics of the caregiver
- good communications skill
- flexible with the schedule
- have their own transportation
- can multi-task well

parson's sick role

2duties
- try to get well as soon as possible
- seek for the professional help

2rights
- can be exempt from the duties for temporarily
- wants to be treat nicely

loss grief and death

loss = loss something that are precious to us / somebody close to us
grief = physical / psychological reaction after the loss
mourning = show our grief in the cultural way

what we can loss ?

- external object
- known environment
- a significant other
- an aspect of self
- life

types of loss

- actual = we lose somebody or something we love
- perceived = we lose the internal integrity ( loss self esteem)
- physical = loss a part or aspect of the body (hearing , hand )
- psychological = emotional loss ( menopause )

engle theory

3stages
1 - shock n disbelief = helplessness
2 - develop awareness = hostility , sadness
3 - restitution and resolution = establishment of the new social pattern n relationship

bowlby theory

4stages
numbness - shock , dunno what happen
yearning - keep talking about it
disorganized - life messy , terrible
reorganized - try to adapt the death and seeking to a new relationship

worden theory

- accept the fact that the loss is real
- experiences the emotional pain of grief
- adjust to an environment without the deceased
- reinvest the emotional energy once directed to the deceased into another relationship

types of grief

- uncomplicated = sad , depressed but then will be fine
- dysfunctional = sad , depressed , feeling down n cannot move on anymore
- anticipatory = can predict and expect what will gonna happen
- disenfranchised = only can keep it in ourself .

factors affecting loss and grief

- developmental stage
- religious and cultural belief
- relationship with the loss object
- cause of death

assessment of the grieving client
- age
- nature of loss
- nature of relationship
- cultural n spiritual belief
- gender
- socioeconomic / social support system

kubler-ross stage of dying (1969)

denial = cant accept the fact
anger = act aggressively
bargaining = try to having a consideration
depression = feeling down
acceptance = accept the fact

assessment of dying client
- current stage of dying
- history of previous positive coping skill

psychological need of dying client
- respiration
- fluid and nutrition
- mouth . eye , ear , nose
- mobility
- skin care
- comfort
- physical environment

hospice = palliative care
= place to treat someone who need a treatment

signs of impending death
- lung become unable to provide adequate gas diffusion
- heart n blood vessel become unable to maintain adequate tissue perfusion
- brain ceased to regulate vital centers
- cheyne stroke / death rattle are sign imminence of death

care after death
- treat the body with respect n dignity
- remove dressing and tubes

legal aspects following death
- autopsy = examination of the body after the death by pathologist to ascertain the cause of death

- organ donation = if the death person give the permission or the relatives allowed it .

care of the family
- informing the family about the circumstances of the death
- provide information about viewing the body
- offering to contact supporting people
- sometimes assisting in making decision regarding the funeral home and removal of the death person's belonging .

shadow grief
- not released , can cause illness or burnout

sociology

definition :
- the scientific and systemic study of human societies and social behavior

sociology focus on
- how social relationship influence the people's attitude and behavior
- how major social institution affect us
- how we affecting other individual , society and organization

sociological imagination
= compared the now generation with other generation

socialization
= the process of social interaction form a new thing in order to survive in society

approaches to self
- how do we look to other
- how other evaluate us
- form a feeling about ourselves

mead stages
- preparatory = up to 3 years old , they followed or immitiate behavior of the person surround them
- the play stage = (role taking - they pretend to be somebody else. eg ; superman )
- the game stage = ( generalized other - already know who are they )

goffman ( presentation of self )
 impression management = how do we produce ourself to a good appearance
face-work = how do we maintain a proper image and avoid from public embarrassed

agents of socialization
- family
- school
- peer
- media mass

family
- first few years of life
- enables to reproduce it self for socialization through family

school
- teach them how to be productive in society
- transmitted the culture
- personal development

media
- inform us about the event
- introduce us to a many people
- entertain us

racial socialization
- personal and group identity
- inter-individual and intergroup relationship
- position in the social hierarchy

anticipatory socialization
- learn a knowledge n skills to a specific role in the future

re-socialization
- learn totally a new set of knowledge n skill

warna jiwa !

mesti mcm pelik jer bunyi tajuk nie kan ? ha , actually aku sje nk cte2x sumthing . kau org sti ade warna fevret masing2x kan ? warna yg menggambarkan diri kau org , warna jiwa kalian lah sng ctenye .. smelahh cm aku . smpi aku berangan , aku nak kawen gune warna yg aku minat uh . kompem ah kan , smua org pun nak jugak gne warna yg kita suke mase kita kawen kan . hak3x . jauhnye aku pk . masyaAllah .


tp sblm tuh , tau tak warna jiwa aku ape ? ha , tak tau en . meh , aku gtau skrg nie . hehe . aku suka warna hitam + merah damn much ! nmpk jer colour tuh , mau melompat aku jadiknye . everything berkaitan colour uh , sgt2x cntek bg aku . hehe . jdk kau org dpt tak rasekan n nilai jiwa n aku nie mcm mne melalui warna fevret aku ? warna uh sgt2x suai dgn diri aku . bg aku . ade jugak aku tny kengkwn , dorg pun ckp bnd yg sme . aku suai dgn warna2x itu . hmmm . maybe lahh kan . hehe .


byk gle brg2x aku dgn warna uh . sbb aku mmg akn crk bnd2x or pkaian yg berkaitan warna2x uh . hehe . happy2x jer . nak tau tak aku tak suke warna ape ? mesti tak sangka sbb aku byk gak brg2x warna uh . hehe . ha , pink ! aku sgt2x tak suke warna pink . uhh , ntah nape . dr zmn2x skola dulu . kwn aku pnah ckp , one day , aku akn suke gle . but , till now , aku tak suke lg . maybe one day tuh kott . hehe .


kalau kau org minat warna uh kan , cbe teliti , sme tak ngn jiwa kau org . if tak , jgn minat . hehe . sbb ia melambangkan diri kita !!


p/s : aku takde idea snanye !

mari study sme2x .. part 3 ..

subject  : BMS ( basic medical science )
lecturer : miss shailaja


part c


CARDIOVASCULAR SYSTEM 


wall of the heart .


1. epicardium 
- outermost layer of the heart
- thin , transparent layer of serous tissue & mesothelium
- space bet. epicardium of the heart and the serous pericardium of the pericardium sac are called as pericardial cavity which contains pericardial fluid , to reduce friction and erosion of the tissue while the heart is contract or expand .


2. myocardium 
- second layer of the heart . underneath the epicardium .
- cardiac muscle tissue , its tissue and fiber are involuntary , striated and branched .
- the tissue are arranged in interlacing and responsible for contraction of the heart .


3. endothelium
- innermost layer of the heart .
- the thin layer of endothelium of the heart are ovaries a thin layer of connective tissue that penetrated by tiny blood vessels and bundles of smooth muscle tissue .
- acts as lining of myocardium , and illness the chamber and valve of the heart .  


pulmonary circulation 


superior and interior vena cava -> right atrium -> right ventricle -> pulmonary artery -> lungs -> pulmonary veins -> left atrium -> left ventricles -> systemic circulation .


- the deoxygenated blood are returns back to right atrium via superior and interior vena cava . 
-  from the right atrium , the deoxygenated blood passes through the tricuspid valve to the right ventricle .
- deoxygenated blood went to pulmonary artery via pulmonary valve .
- then it went to the lungs for the exchange gases . carbon dioxide are diffuse out of the lungs via blood stream to the alveoli of the lungs while oxygen are diffuse in by the alveoli of the lungs to the blood in the capillaries .
- now , the oxygenated blood have been passes to the pulmonary veins .
- from pulmonary veins it passes through the left atrium then directly to the left ventricle via mitral valve . 


systemic circulation 


left ventricle -> aorta -> arterioles / arteries -> capillaries -> venules -> superior and interior vena cava -> right atrium -> right part of the heart .


- oxygenated blood went out to the all part of the body through aorta .
- it went through the arterioles and arteries then arrives at capillaries , where the exchanges of internal respiration between the blood in the capillary with the body cell happened . blood in capillary absorb the waste product from the body cell while the body cell absorb nutrients and oxygen from the blood in the capillary .
- after that , it went out to the venules before it goes back to the superior and interior vena cava as a deoxygenated blood. 
- the systemic circulation complete when the deoxygenated blood passes to the right part of the heart .


RESPIRATORY SYSTEM


function of Respiratory system 
1. ventilate the lungs
2. extract the oxygen from the air and transfer it to the blood stream.
3. excrete the carbon dioxide and water vapour
4. maintain the acid base of the heart .


pulmonary ventilation


consisting the inspiration and expiration is a mechanical process which depends on volumes changes in the thoracic cavity . a rules in the mined are following the discussion which is when the volume changes it leads to the changes of pressure . the other discussion is the volume changes will leads to flow of gases to equalizes the pressure .


external respiration
- the exchanges gases by diffusion between the blood in the capillary and the alveoli of the lung .
- the blood in the capillary carry the deoxygenated blood .
- carbon dioxide will diffuse out from the blood in capillary to the alveoli of the lung .
- oxygen will be diffuse in by alveoli of the lung to the blood in the capillary .


internal respiration
- the exchanges gases by diffusion between the body cell and the blood in the capillary . 
- blood in the capillary carry the oxygenated blood with nutrients.
- the body cell will absorb all the nutrients and oxygen in the blood while the blood in the capillary will absorb all the waste product .


inspiration
- diaphragm and intercostal muscle contract
- diaphragm moves downward and increasing volume of the thoracic cavity.
- intercostal muscles pulls rib up and expanding the rib cage and further . 
- increased the volume of thoracic cavity , leads to the lower pressure in the alveoli and below the atmospheric pressure .
- air always flow from the higher to the lower pressure . it rushes in through the respiratory tract and into alveoli.


expiration
- diaphragm and intercostal muscle relaxes
- diaphragm moves upwards and decreasing volume of the thoracic cavity.
- decreased volume in the thoracic cavity , leads to the increasing of air pressure in the lung and force out air from the lung .

mari study sme2x .. part 2 ..

subjek : BMS ( basic medical science )
lecturer : miss shailaja


part b 


function of granular and agranular ( white blood cell )


granular 
1. eusinophills = eliminates worn and breaking down the histamine
2. basophills = promote inflammatory during allergic reaction
3. neutrophills = pass out the blood stream to the site of infection


agranular
1. monocytes = promote inflammation and immunity
2. lymphocytes = produces antibodies 


wall of artery and veins


artery - thicker
veins - thinner


OL ( outermost layer ) - TA ( tunica adventitia ) - FT ( fibrous tissue )
ML ( middle layer ) - TM ( tunica media ) - SMT ( smooth muscle tissue )
IL ( inner layer ) - TI ( tunica intima ) - SE 'E' ( squamous epithelium 'endothelium' )


definition of systolic and diastolic  


systolic - ventricle contraction , the higher level of pressure .
diastolic - ventricle relaxes , the lower level of pressure .


3 functions of lymphatic system 


1. returns the excessive interstitial fluid to the blood 
2. absorption of fats and fats soluble vitamins
3. transport all those substances to the venous circulation 


main function of lymph nodes


filter the lymph and remove the microorganism and other foreign particular


MALT 


1. arises from the lymph tissue
2. present lining of some other organ in the body 
3. extra-nodal marginal zone b-cell lymphoma


differences between innate and adaptive system 


innate 
- non-specific defense
- inherent immunity ( born with )
- not attack any specific organism
- generic microorganism to prevent entry to the blood system like cell and tissue


adaptive 
- specific defense
- complicated because involved with lymphocytes
- involve in immune response


indications of inflammation


- local swelling ,compresses sensory endings
- promote healing when injury or pain because encouraged protection .
- exacerbated chemical mediator .


antibody ( IgA )


- present in tears , saliva , digestive tract and breast feeding
- protect body surfaces which exposes to the foreign substances .

bila yang diharapkan tak menjadi ...

kalau kau org lahh kan , tak dpat ape yg kau org nak , ape yg kau org rse kan ?? gembira ?? mestilahh ... patah hati kan . itulah yg aku sedang rasekan kini . huhu ! nak tau sal ape ? meh aku cite .


kisahnye sal exm aku lahh . memndangkan now ngah mggu exm kan , tau tak , aku study bgai nak rak ,tp yg masuk hanyalah seciput jer . dah tuh , ade lak yang tak kne ngan topik aku bace . cam tetttt jer ! hehe . itu tak apelahh lagi , if satu subjek jer . problemnye , subjek hari nie pun sme gak ! kirenye dah dua subjek lahh ! mak aihhh . mampus lahh aku kalau mcm nie . huhu ! aku dah boleh predict lah markah aku mcm mne nie . hmm . redha ajelahh . hope sglenye akan okayy lahh !! hope aku nye jwpn tuh maseh betul utk die . huhu . 


dah tuh pulak , aku lately nie , cm ape2x jelahh , rse mcm serba tak kne . asyk nk mrah2x jer . dr hr tuh , mse aku dmm , aku dah mula rse cm aku nie laen jer . pas dmm dah nak sembuh , aku rse , aku jdk cpat2x nak marah . ntah ke ape kesnye . hmm . aku pun taktau . maybe disbbkan ACUTE STRESS nie kott . aku jdk tension semcam en . hmmm . so , hope pas nie , aku akn okayy lahh balek . but act , aku tau aku jdk cm nie nape . semuanye kerana ITU !!!


p/s ; jgn study if kalau anda tau anda takkan dpat jwb !!

mari study sme2x ....

subject ; psychology and sociology 
lect's name ; miss revathi
sub topic ; personality 


theories of personality -
psychoanalytic perspective :


- sigmund freud


- focus - childhood experiences shapes the personality 


- 3 features of this theory :
    - conciousness
    - mind
    - development


1 ) conciousness divided by 2 :


- concious = aware 
- unconcious = not aware


2 ) mind divided by 3 :


- id = usually childhood
- superego = usually teenagers
- ego = adolescent


* anxiety = the conflict bet . id and superego .


* way to reduce anxiety = defence mechanism 


***** type of defense mechanism :


- denial
 = cant accept the truth
- repression
 = behavior influence by experience
- sublimation
 = doing sumthing to release anger
- displacement
 = release anger to another person
- regression
 = based on childhood experiences
- projection
 = thought that others were just like us
- rationalization
 = avoiding the true reasons of behaviour
- reaction formation 
 = hiding teh true feeling .


* stages of human development 


1 - oral stages = 0-18 months
2 - anal stages = 1-3 years
3 - phallic stages = 3-6 years
4 - latency stages = 6-12 years
5 - genital stages = 12- onwards 


TRAITS PERSPECTIVE ; 


5 factor model 


o - openness
c - conciousness
e - extraversion
a - agreebleness
n - neuroticism


cognitive social learning ;


personality influenced by 3 factors ;


- cognitive = our belief .
- behavior = our character
- social = our environment


ROGER'S SELF THEORY 


* positive self image = good thing , advantages of ourself .
* negative self image = bad thing , disadvantages of ourself


real self vs ideal self


real self = reality (what we have )
ideal self = idol like ( what we want )


factors dat influencing self concept ;


schemas = our thought n thingking about ourselves .
scripts = rules and regulations (country , culture and society )


SELF CONCEPT ; 


- body image
- role performance
- identity
- self esteem


self concept and the nursing process ;


- assessment
- nursing diagnosis
* causes
* effects
* problem ?
- outcome identify
- planning
- implementation 
- evaluation

bila demam ,,,

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ikutilah blog ini . sbb ini blog utk org2x yg suka membace . n di blog nie , kte boleh bce cerpen n novel on9 . sumenye best2 n masyuk !! sgt2x suka . hehe .


p/s : bila dmm , takde keje . inilah keje aku . haha .

surat dari seorang anak ...

Mak.....

Terlalu bosan rasaa duduk membilang hari.....

Dah hampir sepuluh bulan mak pergi,

Rasanya baru semalam mak peluk kiter kan sejuk syahdu masih terasa lagi nih....

Mak tau tak.......

itu lah pertama kali mak peluk anak mak yang nakal ni sejak kiter dewasa.....

dan itu juga terakhir kali nya....

Emmmm..

rupanya mak dah tau mak nak pergi jauh....

nak tinggal kan anak2 mak.....

nak tinggal kan dunia fana ni......

mak macam dah sedia.....

Seminggu sebelum tu......

mak dah menganyam tikar mengkuang 3 helai.....

Akak kata sampai ke pagi mak anyam tikar tuu....

tanpa rasa mengantuk, tanpa rasa letih......

kakak pun rasa hairan.....

mak tak penah buat gitu.....

pastu mak pasang radio kecil di sebelah mak......

tapi mak seolah2 tak sedar bahawa rancangan radio tu siaran siam .......

kengkadang siaran indonesia ..mak terus tekun menganyam...

Rupanya tikar yang telah mak siapkan tu di gunakan untuk mengiringi mak ke kuburan...

Pastu mak sapu sampah sekeliling rumah bersih2....

pastu mak jemur karpet-karpet. ..

pastu mak ubahkan sofa ke tempat lain..

mak biarkan ruang tu kosong..rupanya kat situ jenazah mak diletakkan..

paling menarik sekali mak bgtau kat maner sume duit dan barang kemas mak..

ada kat dalam almari.....

ada kat dalam dalam beg.....

ada dalam ASB.....

ada kat dalam Tabung Haji..

mak cakap tak berapa cukup lagi......

ada kat dalam gulung tikar.....

masa tu mak perasan takk..??

kiter gelak sakan bila mak bgtau duit dalam gulung tikar...

kiter kata mak ni memang pesenn lama laaa...

mak cuma gelak jer...

eeemmm...bahagiaa nya saat ituu..

Mak.....

Hari tu hari sabtu 18/08/1999 pukul 3 petang mak tiba2 sakit perut.....

bila malam tu kiter sampai dari KL.....

mak dah dalam kesakitan.

Akak dan abang kat kampong semua dah pujuk.....

mak tetap takmau pi hospital.... .

dan cuma tinggal giliran kiter sahaja yang belum pujuk..

Mak kata mak takmau duduk dalam hospital.... .

tapi kiter berkeras juga pujukk..nanti di hospital ada doktor...

ada ubat untuk mak..

kat rumah kami hanya mampu sapu minyak dan urut jer..

Mak tetap tak bersetuju... ..

mak memang degil..tak salah, anak mak yang ni pon mengikut perangai mak tu..

Tapi akhirnya bila melihat keadaan mak makin teruk...

mak sakit perut sampai nak sentuh perut mak pon sakitkami adik beradik sepakat hantar juga mak ke hospital.... ..

Mak.....

amponkan kami semua...

kami nak mak sehat...kami sayang mak..

kami tak mau mak sakit...

kami terpaksa juga hantar mak ke hospital....

ampon kan kami yer mak....

Mak.....

Malam itu abang bawa mak ke hospitaldan itu lah pertama dan terakhir kali mak naik kereta kiter...

Masih terbayang betapa ceria dan gembiranya mak,kiter kata nak beli kereta....

Mak asyik tanya ajer..

cukup ker duitt..

kiter jawab pula...

kalau tak cukup, mak kan banyak duit...

mak gelak ajerr.....

Lepas tu bila kereta kiter sampai....

mak buat kenduri kesyukuran... ....

Dan kiter masih ingat lagi...

bila kiter eksiden terlanggar Ah-Chong naik motor.....

Punya la kiter takut...kiter warning kakak kiter jangan sesekali bgtau kat mak.....

Bila balik sahaja kampong....

kiter cepat-cepat simpan keta dalam garaj.....

Tapi mak perasan juga bumper depan kemek...

mak tanya kenapa...?Selamba jerr kiter jawab terlangar pokok bunga.....

Mak....

tujuan kiter menipu tu supaya mak tak risau...

Maafkan kiter kerana sampai mak pergi mak tak tau hal sebenar...

mak, kiter menipu mak kan ..ampon kan kiter.....

Mak.....Jam 4.30 pagi 19/08 /2006

Bila tiba aja kat hospital.....

nurse tengah balut mak dengan kain putih.......

mak mesti nampak kiter jatuh terduduk di lantai hospital...

Mesti mak nampak abang cium dahi mak.....

Mesti mak nampak akak baca doa untuk mak....

Mesti mak nampak adik terduduk kat kerusi kat sudut itu...

mesti mak nampak semua tu kann...kann. .kannn

Mak tau tak....

Pagi tu balik dari hospital jam 5.20 pagi kiter mamandu dalam keadaan separuh sedar...

Adik kat sebelah diam melayan perasann...

Kenangan bersama mak berputar dalam kepala ini...

jalan di depan terasa makin kelam.....

airmata dah tak mampu di tahan....

Masa tu seandainya apa-apa terjadi di jalan itu kiter rela...

Namun alhamdulillah akhirnya kiter sampai juga...di sebab kan pagi masih awal, jadi jalan tu lenggang..

kosong. ...sekosong hati ini.....

Sepanjang perjalanan terasa kedinginan subuh itu lain benar suasananya.. .....t

erasa syahdu dan sayu...

dinginnnn. ....

Mak......

Kiter masih ingat lagi....

Kiter baca AlQuran kat tepi mak temankan mak...

Jam 11.00 pagi mak di mandi kan ....

Anak2 mak yang pangku masa mak mandi....

Mak mesti rasa betapa lembut nya kami mengosok seluruh tubuh mak.....

Kiter gosok kaki mak perlahan lahan.....

Mak perasan tak.....?

Makcik yang mandikan mak tu pujuk kiter.....

Dia kata..." dikk...jangan nangis...kalau sayang mak jangan buat gitu...jangan nangis ya..

"Bila makcik tu kata gitu...lagi laaaa laju airmata ni...

tapi kiter kawal supaya tak menitik atas mak....

Mak.....

Sampai takat ini surat ni kiter tulis.....

kiter nangis ni.....Ni kat dlm bilik...baru pukul 4.00 pagi....

Takder orang yang bangun lagi.....

kiter dengar nasyid tajuk "anak soleh" kiter sedih...kiter rindu kat mak....!

Takpa la....nanti bila kita selesai sembanyang subuh,kiter baca yassin untuk mak...mak tunggu ya..!

Mak..

Sebelum muka mak di tutup buat selamanya...

Semua anak2 mak mengelilingi mak...

menatap wajah mak buat kali terakhir....

Semua orang kata mak seolah2 senyum aja...

Mak rasa tak....

masa tu kiter sentuh dahi mak....

kiter rasa sejukkkk sangat dahi makk.....

Kiter tak mampu nak cium mak...

kiter tak daya....

kiter tuliskan kalimah tauhid kat dahi mak dengan air mawar...

Airmata kiter tak boleh tahan....

Mak mesti ingat kan yang anak mak ni jadi imam solat jenazah untuk mak...

tapi kite suruh tok imam bacakan doa sebab kite sebak.....

Jam 12 tengahari mak diusung keluar dari rumah...

Akak pula dah terkulai dlm pelukan makcik...

badan akak terasa panas...makk...

anak mak yang seorang tu demam....

Mak tauu...

cuma akak sorang saja anak mak yang tak mengiringi mak ke tanah perkuburan.. .

Mak.....Hari2 ku lalui tanpa kewujudan mak lagi...

Begitu terasa kehilangan mak...

boleh kata setiap malam selepas maghrib anak mak ini berendam airmata...

Dan sampai satu tahap....

masa tu malam jumaat selepas maghrib....

Selepas kiter baca yassin ngan kawan-kawan. ....

entah kenapa biler kat bilik kiter keluarkan gambar2 mak pastu apa lagi...

semakin kiter tenung terasa semakin sayu...

tangisan tak dapat dibendung...

Mak tauu...

kiter cuba bertahan...

memujuk diri sendiri tapi tak juga reda...

Kiter rasa nak telefon mak.....

nak cakap dengan mak.....

anak mak yang ni dah tak betul kan ..?

Dan akhirnya dalam sedu sedan itu kiter telefon kampong....

Kiter cakap dengan kakak..kiter nangis lagi...

Puas la kakak memujuk kiter...

Akak kata..." tak baik laa nangis aje..doa lah untuk mak..

"Dan akhirnya akak juga nangis.....

Mak tau tak..

di saat itu kerinduan terasa menusuk sehingga ke hulu hati...

rasa nyilu sangat...menusuk-nusuk sehingga terasa begitu sakit dalam dada ni....

Sampai sekarang bila kerinduan itu menjelma....

hanya sedekah al-fatihah kiter berikan.....

Mak...

cukup la sampai sini dulu....

kawan kiter dah ketuk pintu bilik tu...

kejap lagi kami nak pergi solat subuh kat masjid...

selalunya, kiter yang bawak mak naik motor kan ....

kali ni kiter jalan kaki dengan kawan pulak...

esok kiter ingat nak tulis surat kat ayah pula....

Mula2 kiter tak tau nak hantar mana surat nih....

pastu kawan kiter bgtau...

simpan je buat kenangan..

Takper yer mak...Kiter kasi orang lain baca...

Kiter stop dulu...

sebab kawan kiter dah lama tunggu tu...

akhir kata untuk mak,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

dan jutaan terima kasih....

kerana membesarkan kiter...

memberi seluruh kasih sayang dari kecil sampai masuk sekolah..

sampai masuk univesiti....

sampai kiter boleh rase naik kapal terbang...

boleh rasa duduk kat negara orang...

sampai akhir hayat ini jasa mak tak akan mampu kiter balas.

karya oleh seorg hamba Allah yg begitu merindui ibunya....!!! sama2lah kita hayati & balaslah jasa ibu KITA yg masih hidup. kpd yg dh pergi perbanyakkanlah sedekahkan doa dan bacaan al-Quran kpd mereka..!!!

p/s : sme2xlahh kte doakan hmba ALlah ini beserta kita sndri , dihapuskan dn diampunkan dosa2x .